Was Jesus God? If Yes, how? When He is our God, then why are suffering this agony?

The Messiah was believed from the old testament that,
He will be a descendent of David? St. Joesph was descendent of David not Mary.Jesus was conceived by the power of the holy spirit?
Jesus life, full time is not captured in the Bible, only His birth, next at 12 years in the temple, than it moves directly to 30 years, for his baptism? How? Why?
In parallel we his cousin who was living only in desert, and asking the world to repent and change as the axe is already kept at the root, (mind you not on the leaves!)
But Jesus ate good food and DRANK WINE like any other human, while John the baptist ate, Locusts and DRANK honey, like a sage?
Jesus started preaching only after his 30 years, but in common man’s language, that was real USP.
Jesus could control his senses and live a life pleasing to our FATHER,
Jesus is the not only the Son of God? but we are also his Sons and Daughters!
If Jesus was the only Son of God! in Human terms? (forgive GTF) who is the mother God?
Jesus could not have died for our sins, as we believe he resurrected on the third day? Then how did he undergo the pain agony of hell for you and me, and FOR THE GENERATIONS AFTER AD 33 (this death) till date?
If dying on the cross is the only criteria then, John the Baptist head was cut?
It was St.Paul who really spread Christianity, followed by Constantin, who brought the concept of Trinity.
God is God, but we want a easy going God to live a easy going life without a punishing God, so we brought in Jesus as God, is this very similar to the Isrealities who made many Gods (my apologies), we are the lost generations, not LAST generation, We have to undergo the pain and sufferings as our GTF had warned during Moses, in Exodus time itself,
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.(now worldly pleasures)
3 “You shall have no other gods before[a] me. (But, we are still slaves to many gods like, loan EMI’s, Gold, Women/men, fame, Earthly materials, so on…)
4 “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, PUNISHING the children for the SINS of the PARENTS to the third and fourth generation of those who HATE ME,6 but showing LOVE to a THOUSAND generations of those who love me and KEEP MY COMMANDMENTS.

This is GTF (God Thee Father), though we know this from our childhood days, and we were very obedient, but now we know the world better, how our heart pumps blood for kilometers and that too without rest for second for our life time, our eyes can see! our ears can hear! our nose can smell!…

He created us, not for sake of creating but you can see the intricacy in HIS of matter eg.Atom, then to a organ eg.Cell, both are unique.

Let us understand this basic truth, NOT to worship other gods and put our children and grand children into problems, from which they can never come out, meanwhile create more problems for coming generations!

Kingdom of God! … Where is it? Who is the caretaker?

We are living Kingdom of God!

Luke 17:20, And when he was demanded of the Pharisees,when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation:
{17:21} Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, THE KINGDOM OF GOD is WITHIN YOU.

But we do all atrocities, to his Kingdom, and when we are aged we say ” God is mercy-less, He punishes even Children!

If we can live a worthy life, then we can ask God for a wonderful life, which HE gave to Adam and Eve, but from that day till today we are running behind illusions even after knowing that it will not last forever, but we want to satisfy our senses only!